Day 3

I know this is not going to be an academic post, but technically this assignment has not started yet, and also if I continue with the idea of a nonfiction writing on dealing with my grief this is a HUGE day. I used to love Labor Day weekend, it almost always hit the same time as our anniversary so it was nice to have time off and an excuse to get away without kids. Now I find myself annoyed with kids and simply wanting to escape anywhere. So my question is how do I escape the memories of what could have been when the sorrow is so fresh and haunts me? Do you embrace the good memories even if it brings tears, or do you try to keep busy keeping your mind from wandering to the point where you feel the tears fighting to bring themselves to the surface? SO what am I doing? I am pretending to do homework using this assignment as an excuse to vocalize my thoughts and sort through my emotions in the best way I can. I am going to try to sort through some of the things I have put off since I lost him embracing the memories instead of avoiding them. I am going to be there for my kids in their activities with a strong front hiding the pain, as I so often find myself doing.